Have you ever had to open up to your friends and family about something going on in your life? Have you ever been scared of what could happen once you tell the truth and confess? I know that this has happened to many people, especially me.Ā A few days ago, my best friend and I kind of got into it. It wasnāt anything major, but we havenāt talked since.
The one thing that is hard to understand with PANDAS is the O.C.D and intrusive thoughts. My bestfriends donāt know everything that happens and goes on with me. I choose not to tell them because Iām scared of what could happen. How do you explain that you have had thoughts of killing or yourself or hurting yourself in some way? How do explain that once you have a bad thought it never goes away?
My mom thinks that I should sit down with my best friendās mom and tell her everything before I tell the girls. Even though the mom considers me as one of her daughters, Iām still scared about what she might say. My mom thinks that we might walk away knowing that they donāt care and still love me or who knows what could happenš¤·š½āāļø.
These girls have been my besties all through middle school and my freshman year. Iām scared of losing them and seeing how they will react.
How do you tell your best friends that you have major O.C.D and intrusive thoughts? How do explain all of this and still walk away with friends? They havenāt talked to me a few days, so I guess I have time to get myself prepared for the āConfessionsā that Iām going to make. Iām really nervous, but this is the only way they will understand me fully and help us maybe have a better understanding of each other.
Until then,
– Egypt